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Licking Secrets Clean
The mannequen on the cross,
Roped and rouged,
Does not feel the same
As she thinks she does.
And our fantasies of her
Miraculously somehow wanting us
Do not fulfill, but tease,
Telling truths
To strangers in shackles
In old, cold rooms.
More perfect than we
Are, her hands,
Disengage and feel
Our secrets
And do not mind the cold.
The perfect body
Mocks our flaws
But her red lips smile
With understanding.
We have imagined
The comfort of a blind lover,
Who can’t judge our looks, only feel us.
We have imagined the comfort
Of feeling our secret
Perfections in crowded rooms
Of our other judgements
About ourselves, which avert
Their eyes from our pleasure taking.
The mannequen’s blind eyes, open, green, serene,
Look away from the cross, her hand
Against our crotch, against
Our suffering, our agony of being
Alive and beating warm.
~Tantra Bensko
Egon
Schiele: In Prison
He squats in prison, asking for a large mirror,
Charcoal, paper. The judge said he lured
Girls into looking at their bodies, let tender
Children see paintings the opposite of pornography.
Given no mirror, only paper, he
Draws his long and skinny hands. Later, he pulls
His cheek, exposing his eye. He opens the walls
With a sweeping gesture, to see his gesture.
See past the wall’s strict form.
With his hand, he sees through walls: from the street,
From Schonbran park, girls go to rest in his house.
They sleep off parents’ beatings. They eat.
Always tying dirty sashes, trying to seem like freedom.
Collectors need images of them
In Hapsburg-clenched Vienna, even if they’re open,
Skeletal, eyes red, blue joints swollen,
Struggling to the form of square and canvas,
Like words to their rhythms.
He’ll make the rich of Ringstrasse—which circles Vienna
For shooting riots, faking the glory of stucco days
With ornate cement—he swears he’ll Make them see Moa
As she is, and Fredericke, thoughtful, her
Face turned sideways over her hand clutching her shoulder.
He’s drawn their hands dark and long, their bodies small.
Or if they’re clothed, their hands have all
Their painful nakedness. He’s given them his.
~Tantra
Bensko
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